Monday, December 2, 2013

Finding Joy Amidst the Pain + A Free Gift

Over the past couple of years, I've shared several moments that our family experienced...  

moments of laughter,

moments of exploration,

moments of discovery,

Now, I would like to take you behind the scenes a bit.  Back almost one year ago from today, to the moments that began a season of heartache for my family.  The ones that left us wondering to whether we would ever recover.  Moments that forced us to find "joy to burn out the pain."

Last year, our family suffered from two failed adoptions.  One in November of 2012 and another in February of 2013.  We fell for each of the tiny little boys that we were hoping to welcome into our home. We named them, held them, loved them, and celebrated their births.  We even brought one of those miracles home to live with us and my oldest became a big brother. 

When our social worker told us that we would have to give him back, tears were shed.  Many.  Repeatedly. The second time this happened, we not only lost a baby boy, but we also lost a bit of hope.  It took us months to find our "normal" again. Through it all, I focused on one quote that carried me through the toughest of days: 

"Find a place inside where there is joy, 
and joy will burn out the pain. " 
~Joseph Campbell.

I'll admit that there were days in which I did not want to get out of bed.  When it was difficult to find the strength to put breakfast on the table for the beautiful toddler that we are blessed to have in our lives. But just like they say, time did heal.  I took time to weep, but also made time to find joy in the normal, everyday routine of our lives.  To be there for my family who needed me, while they also allowed me to lean on their shoulder.  I couldn't have done it without the support from my husband, my parents, and a small circle of women that allowed me to share my pain.  To feel it from inside and out.  To allow the pain and the joy to heal me.

So, now from that glimpse into our struggles, I'd like to share a gift with you.  I was extremely honored to be featured in the {free} ebook, "Heart Centered Living: with intention, growth, and grace" that was edited by Deb from Home Life Simplified. Deb graciously took her to time to gather women who had a story to tell. I, along with 18 other women, share a piece of my story within its pages.  A piece of my heart.


To read more about how I took an empty space ~ an empty room to be exact ~ and turned it into a place to connect with my son, you can download your free copy by clicking here.  You can experience, not only how I found a bit of hope and solace among the pain, but how other women became open to learning and change, or finding their path.  How they committed time for self care and self love, and embraced mindfulness by celebrating the everyday.  You won't want to miss out on this special piece of work.

Thank you all for listening.  For hearing my words. For taking the time to see them.


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  1. You beautiful woman! Thank you again for sharing your story of moving from pain to connection xxxxx

  2. My dear friend, I couldn't read this without tears… I fell right back to those moments with you… tho I couldn't and can't be with you, I felt your heartbreak then and now and just wish I could give you a hug… You are by far the strongest person I know and your strength and courage and love for your gorgeous boy is compelling and extraordinary. xxx

  3. Gina my heart is breaking for you, and your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing about this darkest of seasons here and with others, so that we too may lift you up, but also overcome darknesses in our own lives.

    Sending hugs across the miles.

  4. I remember you going through this and feeling so terrible for you and your family. Thank you for sharing this so that other's who have been through a similar experience will feel less alone. I'm pinning to the Sunday Parenting Party pinterest board


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